An update as to why there are no more updates

Hiiiiii everyone! I haven’t written an update in I don’t even know how long. I feel bad because the encouragement and support I got from everyone at the very beginning of my journey was one of the things that kept me going. I appreciate everything from the dinners, to the donations, to the messages of support. Please never think I took that for granted or no longer want you guys apart of my journey.

I had some bridge burning happen in my family due to so many different reasons and because of that, I don’t want these updates being public. Even typing that out seems so dramatic. I know I am dramatic. But if a family member explicitly shows that they have no interest in supporting me through this, I don’t want them having any access to me, my family, or updates about my wellbeing/treatments. Sharing my journey publicly is just another thing on the list of things I’ve been robbed of because of this individual.

I will say just for everyone who has supported me and been here for my family unwaveringly since the beginning, I have finished (this round) of IV chemo. Thank God. That had to be one of the most difficult things I’ve ever gone through and I still feel effects from it. I have my consult for radiation today and will know my schedule for that soon. Busy season is in FULL swing and I’m completely overwhelmed and stretched thin as it is…how I’m going to add 5 days of radiation to my schedule, I honestly have no clue lol. But as my MIL constantly reminds me, we can do hard things. Once I finish my radiation + chemo pill combo, I will have rescans and hopefully be ready for surgery.

This journey has been so weird, depressing, unnerving, but has had a bunch of beautiful moments and filled with flows of happiness and good things as well. Thank you to my friends and chosen family who have been here through the highs of disney and harry styles concerts and who have also pulled me in closer during the hard moments of mourning my old life and normality. Thank you for sitting down with me in the trenches when I needed and then dragging me back to the battle field when necessary. It means more to me than any of you know.

(Oh, and also stream Midnights!)